We so often hear horror stories about giving birth – the pain, what went wrong, the problems at the hospital. But what about when things so well? When just after giving birth you feel that you could do it again? When you have your ‘ideal’ birth experience? What then? Well usually we are made to feel lucky and a bit strange and then we shut up about it and let the stories of pain take over…
I have decided not to be quiet! I have decided to share my story as I think my experience could help other women to approach birth full of courage that their bodies are made to do this and not with fear which is scientifically proven to slow down the process (fight and flight hormones send energy to our legs and arms to flee the situation, not to our essential organs for giving birth).
Jack is my second child. Edgar, my first, was born in 2011. He was 12 days late and needed to be induced. The process was very intensive with contractions every minute for 7 hours. I gave birth at Saint Pierre hospital with the team of midwives on shift at that time. I asked by gynaecologist not to be there (a first in her long career) as I did not want the birth to be medicalised unless really necessary, and I had confidence in the doctors at Saint Pierre if I needed them. I spent the end of the labour in water, which helped a lot, then 1 hour and twenty minutes pushing Edgar out.
Although it was an almost natural birth (apart from the induction), I held some apprehension for giving birth again. Especially when my second pregnancy also went over time and we began to talk about induction again.
I’d like to mention special thanks to the midwives who followed me for the whole pregnancy - Zwanger in Brussel (http://www.zwangerinbrussel.be ). I could not recommend them more wholeheartedly. Four wonderful midwives who have found a great balance in taking good care of the pregnancy while keeping intervention to a minimum.
Although I am writing this 5 weeks later, I actually recorded what happened for the birth just after. This is what I wrote:
“I am sitting in Saint Pierre hospital with my two day old Jack sleeping by my side. What a joy – he is having a lovely sleep, making his little noises every so often, but sleeping for two hours already. He’s eating well. He’s met his big brother and that went great… but first the birth…
Sunday evening 2/2/14 – just after midnight, l had an overwhelming sensation to go to the toilet and had a big gush of water… my waters had broken. I hadn’t experienced this with Edgar so it was a new feeling. It happened 3 times. I went back to bed to lie down and the contractions started to come. I was in no doubt about that!
As I had been preparing with hypno-birthing (http://www.hypnobirthing.com), my reaction was to go back to bed and to relax completely and see if the contractions were becoming regular. They soon did – every five to seven minutes.
At 1.45am I thought it was time to call a taxi. My parents-in-law were with us to look after Edgar, so my partner just let them know that we would not be around in the morning and we were off.
We arrived at Saint Pierre through the emergency and were sent to the delivery floor. My contractions were steady and regular but with the hypno-birthing technique I simply closed my eyes when they came and rode the wave until it passed. Between contractions I felt completely normal.
The midwife checked me out – I was only 2cm dilated but she said that they would keep me in as I had lost some amniotic fluid in the waters. She added that if I did not start having contractions then they would have to induce me. I thought this was strange since I had told her I was having contractions, but the problem with hypno-birthing is that from the outside it looks like you are not going through anything!
They took me to the induction room as they obviously presumed labour would be some time away, and hooked me up to the monitor. It was only then that she saw and believed that I was having regular contractions!
We were left to ourselves. My partner dimmed the lights and put on my relaxation exercise, which I had been doing every day for the last two months. It was my aid to get deeper into the hypno-birthing. I had added some relaxation music afterwards so for the next 90 minutes I went with that, rode the contraction waves and reassured myself that my body knew exactly what to do and that Jack was on this way.
At 4.45am I felt that the contractions were changing. These were the only contractions that my partner was aware of me having. I also needed to go to the toilet. After about 5 contractions like that I told my partner to call a midwife….
“What should I tell her?” he asked, thinking that we must still have hours to go…
“Just tell her to come please,” was all I could explain!
She did come – she checked me out and said they need to get me to a delivery room straight away – Jack was there!
I started to breathe Jack out rather than push him. It is so much more effective! Try it next time you go to the toilet!! Pushing makes you contract your muscles, breathing relaxes them and helps the baby to pass.
A wonderful student midwife, Garance, encouraged me to take the position that I wanted and so I gave birth to Jack 15 minutes later on all fours. He came out looking at the stars and he was passed to me through my legs. I took off my t-shirt and held him to my chest – animal instinct in action! I asked them not to cut the cord straight away. They didn’t leave it long though – 5 minutes maybe and my partner cut it.
We were left for three hours skin-to-skin. This is the most magical moment ever. 8 babies had arrived that night, all within a couple of hours so the midwives had a pretty busy schedule.
I had a couple of scratches to the perineum – the only ‘damage’. No stitches needed just a bit of water while I went to pee for 24 hours. I was up and walking during the day and no pain to sit down… amazing!
Jack was born 54cm long, 3,780kg at 5.23cm. A real sweetie – calm and alert.
An amazing experience and I am so happy my son could be born into this world in such a way.”
What was so special about hypno-birthing? To me the following points seem the most vital:
- your body knows what to do – trust it and take your head with its fears and doubts somewhere else
- birth is not a medical process – you and your baby are in this together all the way – he also knows what to do – trust him
- each contraction will be a wave of 1 minute, with a peak. Then it will subside. The hardest part is very short and will pass
- breathing out your baby is easier for you both and causes less damage
It is not that I felt no pain – it was however completely manageable. Just after giving birth I felt like I could do it again – that was certainly not my experience first time.
Thanks to my wonderful friend Julia who passed on the hypno-birthing book to me and to midwife Vinciane Sury who guided me in a couple of sessions in Brussels… it was a wonderful way to welcome Jack.